The complete misadventure of my lappy disaster

When I woke at 4 that night, I looked at that small screen. It was glowing and showing my idle desktop wallpaper. I smiled I guess, thinking that finally its saved. Finally its working again. I shut the lid and went to sleep again.
It was the evening before that night when it all started. I sat down infront of my lovely blue-white lappy and when it asked for my password, with no premonition of any dreaded things, I typed it in followed by a hit on the return key. And that was the moment when hell froze. Actually my IdeaPad did. For several minutes I waited to see that wallpaper, "bliss" as windows call it, but all I could see was "Loading your personal settings". I had no other choice left other than to make the forced shut down. It irked me. It irks me if anything does not behave like it should and that too at the time when I need it to. Several re-runs of the same drama did not yield anything fruitful and frustrated I packed my IdeaPad back in my bag. Thought of having a look at it at my leisure in the comfort of my home.
Now at my home, you just can not start working as soon as you reach. There are few choruses you have to do before you settle in and start resting yourself. After all my family members, especially my little niece, do not see me the whole day and I need to give them some time too. So it was not before 11 that I could start to have a look at the problem in hand. The first thing that I used to do when I was in college at such times was to format the disk and reinstall the OS. But here I couldn't do that. The reason of concern was the data that was there in my hard disk. Apart from some very important personal data, those pictures, videos and the application bank that I have made in past 5 years, the thing was that it contained critical official data too which I could not afford to lose. Even having an external hard disk was not of any help as I could not copy the data until my laptop works for one last time. Tried to run it in safe mode and once I was there, I tried to uninstall one particular application, which was causing the problem according to me. But that was where I screwed it big time. My lappy refused to operate in safe mode too. Irritation took over all other feelings and I left the Ideapad to get restarted in safe mode one last time and went to sleep, not bothering whats gonna happen?
when I woke up at 4 I saw the screen showing the wallpaper "Bliss". I thought it started to work and shut it down. Now that is where being sleep deprived hurts you real bad. What should have I done there? I should have taken the backup of the hard drive and then shut it down, which I did not do because my mind wasn't working. And in the morning when I got up, my lappy did not. There was no time to attend to it, as I had to rush to office. What happened in the office will constitute the second part of this post. Stay tuned....

And the last phase begins....

There are many things that surfaced in the last few days and most important of them all are the changes in me. Yes, myself, the very person carrying the name Kumar Aditya. Being an extremist doesn't help much. Neither it helps if you are stubborn and are not ready to change yourself according to the needs of today's world. Then which changes I'm talking about? These are the changes that happened not for my desire to change or to gain something that this world does not have to offer otherwise. These changes did not happen to what I believe in. These changes have happened to my behaviour. From being a person who wanted to see the result at any cost, by doing anything in his power has changed to a person who is now letting things take their course. Becoming a person who accepts the things as they are, not how he wants them to be, who is ready to see things unfolding themselves and is ready to be surprised. Becoming a person who has stopped worrying about the "what ifs".
Another news - My dream venture Mallone has entered in its last phase of creation. Almost 3 years after its conception, it will be getting out now in a few days time. It feels great to see one process working, in which I believed. People have laughed over it at times, few people were sarcastic and very few supported it. But as Mahatma Gandhi said "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, and then you win" and winning matters. That is one thing that hasn't changed and will never change...

Change and the reason behind it....

Many people I meet want me to change. They say my views are not practical, they are not realistic and certainly they do not meet the need of the hour. I have, as it has implied already, a different take on things around me. The words practical & realistic mean differently for me. I never understand what people call as practical and realistic approach. How can giving up my values, my character and my principles to gain something materialistic be practical when I can achieve that by following a different path but keeping my inner-self intact, keeping my values intact. May be a bit delayed but still within reach. What is practical? For me everything that is possible to do is practical. A thing that is doable , I believe I can do that and what is doable is practical.I work, I work hard. I aim high, and I plan to achieve that too. I work on executing that plan as well. All that I do differently is having a people-centric approach. Feelings, promises, loyalty, love, integrity, these things mean more to me than achieving some materialistic objective. I believe in values that I got from my family, from the learned men who gave the society its intellectuality. I take things on their absolute value. I weigh them as if they are right things to do in an absolute environment or not? Not in a perspective, not in any comparison. Cheating somebody is wrong in an absolute environment, not being loyal is wrong in absolute environment, losing my integrity is bad whatever be the reasons behind it and so I'll consider them wrong irrespective of the conditions. When I resigned from AIESEC, I didn't leave with a cordial relationship with the organization, but that does not stop me from doing anything that can help the organization grow. So why would I change my values if somebody did something of his or her choice that was against or in favour of me? I am not saying I am a saint. All I am saying is that I do not change because the world does something or does not. I'm not against change either. It is inevitable, but it should be for progress. Progress of the society, progress of the people, progress of the individual at intellectual level. Change for the sake of change, at the cost of values, at the cost of integrity should not be acceptable and there I differ from today's world. A world which is hypocrite. Which taught me one thing and asks me to do the opposite. I'll keep my integrity, my sanity, my loyalty, my honour and I'll grow too, achieve too without changing myself. If I commit to something. I'll honour it, whatever be the implications. And that this world can not take away from me, whether it thinks that as practical or not.

विचारों के मध्य का अन्तर

आज मैं बहुत दिनों के बाद यहाँ हूँ। इतने दिनों से आया नहीं, क्योंकि उलझा हुआ था कई सारी परिस्थितियों से। आज आया हूँ कि कुछ उत्तर चाहिये थे। उत्तर जो मेरे पास हैं, और मैं जानता हूँ कि वो बदलेंगे भी नहीं। तो यूँ कहिये कि अपनी कुछ बातें लाया हूँ। इन बीते दिनों में अन्तर देखा है मैंने, अन्तर जो मेरे विचारों और मान्यताओं, और बाकी दुनिया के मान्यताओं के मध्य है। परन्तु ये अन्तर इतना विराट क्यूँ और कैसे? मैं भी तो इसी सन्सार का अंग रहा हूँ। आखिर कहाँ पीछे रह गया मैँ इन विचारों के परिवर्तन से?
मैंने माना चरित्र निर्माण ही ध्येय होना चाहिये मानव जीवन का। मैंने माना प्रेम हर सम्बन्ध का आधार और विश्वास ही परिणति होनी चाहिये। मैंने माना कि प्रेम,विश्वास और प्रतिबद्धता स्तंभ होने चाहिये जीवन के और अपने बचपन से यही पढा भी। यही पढा और सीखा कि चरित्र ही सबसे बडा धन है। धन के लिये आगे बढने की दौड में विश्वास करना नहीं सीख पाया। केवल आगे रहना है, नहीं तो दुनियाँ हेय समझेगी, इस पर विचार नहीं किया कभी। कोई भी कार्य इसलिये किया क्युँकि खुद करना चाहता था। इच्छा हुयी स्वयँ करने की, इसलिये किया। बस ध्यान रखा इस बात का कि जो कर रहा हूँ वो नैतिक, कानूनी और मर्यादा की सीमा के अन्दर हो। इसलिये किया कि कुछ सीख सकूँ। सीख्नना ही ध्येय था। यह ध्येय कभी नही रहा कि सीखूँ ताकि उसका प्रयोग कर बाकियों से आगे निकल सकूँ। संसार मायने नहीं रखता था उस कार्य में मेरे लिये। संसार महत्वपूर्ण था और है, पर इसलिये कि भावनायें महत्वपूर्ण हैं, इसलिये कि स्वयँ से प्रेम नहीं कर सकता, इसलिये कि अकेले जी नहीं सकता। संसार इसलिये महत्वपूर्ण नहीं कि उससे मुझे लडना है, उससे मुझे जीतना है, बल्कि इसलिये महत्वपूर्ण है कि जो भी सीख सकता हूँ, इसी से सीख सकता हूँ। और सबसे महत्वपूर्ण इसलिये है क्यूँकि प्रेम इसी में रह्कर मिलेगा, इसी से मिलेगा।
मेरे यही विचार आज उपहास का विषय हैं, क्यूँकि आज संसार में आगे बढना ही महत्व रखता है। क्योंकि आज जो हम पढते हैं, वो सीखने के लिये नहीं पढते,उसपे विश्वास करने के लिये नहीं पढते, बल्कि दूसरों से आगे निकलने के लिये पढते हैं, मनोरंजन के लिये पढते है। प्रेम का औचित्य नहीं है, विश्वास का औचित्य नहीं है, क्योंकि ये आपको आगे बढने से रोक देती हैं। इनका औचित्य है बस तब तक जब तक ये आपके हर्ष में, आपके मजे में आपके सहायक हैं। परेशानी लेकर प्रेम और विश्वास के साथ अडिग रहना अब मूर्खता है।
मैँ नहीं मानता और ना ही मानूँगा कभी। आज भी मेरे जीवन के आधार स्तंभ वही हैं और सदा वही रहेंगे। जिन्हें ये हास्यास्पद लगता है, हँस सकते हैं, जिन्हें मूर्खता लगती है, बिना सन्कोच मुझे मूर्ख बुला सकते हैं। पर मैं नही मानूँगा कभी कि संसार में प्रेम, विश्वास और प्रतिबद्धता से महत्वपूर्ण जीवन में कुछ भी है। पता नहीं आप सहमत होंगे या नहीं, पर प्रतीक्षा रहेगी आपकी प्रतिक्रियाओं की। मुझे समझना है इस अंतर को। मेरे विचार पढने के लिये धन्यवाद।

At HCL and beyond....

I just finished reading a book named "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" and It has been quite an experience reading that book. It taught me many things and I would recommend you all to read it too. Meanwhile I was absent from here for long. Sorry for the delay is all i can say. I have joined HCL as most of you would be knowing and roght now I'm in the training period. Being in classroom even after college is not easy, but its rewarding. Cant write much right now, but will come back soon....

Insomniac

I'm writing this post at 4:21 in the morning, a mere five hours later when I wrote my last post. Nothing has changed much as such. All that has changed is my mood, and as I promised you that I will be posting every slightest change, and also that I am not enough sleepy to go to bed, neither enough awake to study, I thought why not write a few things.
Few weeks ago I left the post of Vice-president at an organisation which globally has 30,000 persons working for it. No, I was not the head of all of them, but of a mere 10, a part of the executive and governing body of one of the chapters of this orrganisation, which has its presence in 105 countries. But still, you don't get the opportunity of being called a vice-president every now & then and certainly not at this age. And yet I left it. I do not regret my decision because their are goals which mean more to me than holding that post. On the other hand I loved my organization too and could not see it suffer because of me and so I had to choose the harder but right way.

Getting into HCL

Imagine a boy lifted up in the air by a bunch of his friends and being kicked fiercely at his bums. That is the scene when you get placed and share the news with your friends in any engineering college. Happenned to me that evening and God, I liked it more than I would have liked anything else in the recent past (mind you, for once only, please dont come barging in my room with a motive of banging my backyard) .
I did take my routine step when I got down from the bed and just fell on the chair infront of my computer screen that evening after my usual day nap. As usual, opened the browser to check my mail hoping that there will be something cheerful in the mail box. And there it was. A new mail and the subject line said it all. "You have been selected for HCL .........", it was saying. Though not being my ultimate dream, it sure was a start and coming after a long year of waiting it really meant a lot.
Life has changed a little bit after that day and hope it will keep changing in ths manner. As I have already said, change is the thing, you can rely upon.......